I found out a few days ago that I didn't get into grad school here at ETSU like I was trying to do. I started applying in June and came across a lot of obstacles along the way. Whether it was an unsent transcript here or an un received email there, it was frustrating.
But then I got a call from my mom. And she said, There's a letter from ETSU here, can I open It?. After reviewing your application, the Graduate Committee has decided that it is best to not admit you into the PCOM program. blah blah blah limited positions available blah blah blah but not one for you man. Good Luck and Piss Off. (i want the $35 app fee back)
So no ETSU for me. But I'm not too upset. My 'plans' were to possibly go to seminary after my masters anyways, so now I can jump on the fast track to that. And after some research, it's actually cheaper than grad school would have been. Plus I can go to any one I want because they don't have in and out of state tuition. So I'm excited about that. But I didn't want to have to say goodbye to the ETSU folks that I've grown to love so soon. I was expecting to at least spend a couple of years with them. But I'm good at adapting to new places and people.
12/8/09
10/26/09
Lazy
Once again it's been forever since my last post. I want to post more often, so I think I will!
Not a whole lot has gone on since my last post. I'm still jobless and not in school, but that's where i'm supposed to be for this season of my life. I have been spending tons of time with friends form the ETSU BCM and Cru. They're pretty cool people. I've been trying to fill my time with fellowship, bible studies and worship. It's been a pretty amazing time. But I miss school. I can't wait till i'm back in the spring.
Well, tonight, the BCM had a coed bible study that I went to. We talked about where God is in your life and how he fits into his priorities. Where you spend your time, attention, and money are huge indicators of what your priorities are. I know that many times my actions show that God is not my top priority. So I know that God wants to be reflected in ALL that I do, not only 75% of it.
I get to go home this weekend! The main reason I'm going home is to see my best friend Rhonda. She's gonna be home from Mexico for at least the weekend, so we get to hang out. She's the one who led me to Christ, so she has a special place in my heart, just below Jesus. So any time that we get to hang out is going to be awesome. Plus I get to ride home with my roomie Paul, so that'll be an awesome 6 hrs each way!!! Rock On!
Not a whole lot has gone on since my last post. I'm still jobless and not in school, but that's where i'm supposed to be for this season of my life. I have been spending tons of time with friends form the ETSU BCM and Cru. They're pretty cool people. I've been trying to fill my time with fellowship, bible studies and worship. It's been a pretty amazing time. But I miss school. I can't wait till i'm back in the spring.
Well, tonight, the BCM had a coed bible study that I went to. We talked about where God is in your life and how he fits into his priorities. Where you spend your time, attention, and money are huge indicators of what your priorities are. I know that many times my actions show that God is not my top priority. So I know that God wants to be reflected in ALL that I do, not only 75% of it.
I get to go home this weekend! The main reason I'm going home is to see my best friend Rhonda. She's gonna be home from Mexico for at least the weekend, so we get to hang out. She's the one who led me to Christ, so she has a special place in my heart, just below Jesus. So any time that we get to hang out is going to be awesome. Plus I get to ride home with my roomie Paul, so that'll be an awesome 6 hrs each way!!! Rock On!
9/25/09
It's Been A While...
It's been a while for a lot of things.
First of all it's been a while since I've posted on here. I should do it more. It's not like I've been busy. I have all day free since I currently don't have a job and I'm not going to school this semester. I'm really hoping for that to change really soon.
It's been a while since I've slept a good night's sleep. My sleep pattern has been from AM-PM, not the other way around. It's not like me to be this nocturnal. I'm a morning person and I've been heading to sleep when the rest of the world is waking up.
It's been a while since I've eaten a good square meal. Usually it's a peanut butter and jelly sandwich here, or a fast food trip there. I had one pretty good meal that included Stouffer's Mannacotti and a piece of chicken. Besides that it's snacks and "Hey do you want my leftovers?"
And here's the big one...
It's been a while since I've been really on fire for God. Wednesday night I've been going to The Well, a non-denominational worship service held at a local church. This Wednesday night James, The Well speaker, talked about Revelation 3 where it says that God prefers that we be either hot or cold. He says that if we are lukewarm he will spit us out of his mouth and have nothing to do with us. As soon as James read the passage, I knew where I stood. Lukewarm. It's not like I've stopped believing and loving Christ, it's just that I haven't really grown closer to him recently. And all of the blame for that falls on me. I haven't been consistently praying or reading the Bible. God has provided me with the same resources that I had when I was on fire for Him. It's me that's changed. I think the point of me writing this is to pen my thoughts so I can look back later and see if I've moved in either direction, towards God or towards the world.
This weekend I'm at a retreat with other BCMers from across the state. Hope this will fan the ember that is my relationship with Christ and set me back on fire again.
My Prayer:
Father God, I'm sorry that I've gotten to this point. I'm ashamed of how I've treated your sacrifice. Alot of times, I feel worse than Paul did when he said he was the worst of all sinners. But still You love me. That's out of my comprehension. I can't begin to understand what that is like. Please continue to be patient with me. I'm tired of being mediocre. I'm tired of living a lazy spiritual life. It's easy to pose, but you see through this. Please shower me with conviction when I don't do what I'm supposed to. Please rebuke me when I cast you aside. Please let me fully depend on you. Please let me love you like I did at our first meeting. I don't want to be lukewarm anymore. I just want to bask in your love, mercy, hope, and grace.
In Christ's Name. Amen.
First of all it's been a while since I've posted on here. I should do it more. It's not like I've been busy. I have all day free since I currently don't have a job and I'm not going to school this semester. I'm really hoping for that to change really soon.
It's been a while since I've slept a good night's sleep. My sleep pattern has been from AM-PM, not the other way around. It's not like me to be this nocturnal. I'm a morning person and I've been heading to sleep when the rest of the world is waking up.
It's been a while since I've eaten a good square meal. Usually it's a peanut butter and jelly sandwich here, or a fast food trip there. I had one pretty good meal that included Stouffer's Mannacotti and a piece of chicken. Besides that it's snacks and "Hey do you want my leftovers?"
And here's the big one...
It's been a while since I've been really on fire for God. Wednesday night I've been going to The Well, a non-denominational worship service held at a local church. This Wednesday night James, The Well speaker, talked about Revelation 3 where it says that God prefers that we be either hot or cold. He says that if we are lukewarm he will spit us out of his mouth and have nothing to do with us. As soon as James read the passage, I knew where I stood. Lukewarm. It's not like I've stopped believing and loving Christ, it's just that I haven't really grown closer to him recently. And all of the blame for that falls on me. I haven't been consistently praying or reading the Bible. God has provided me with the same resources that I had when I was on fire for Him. It's me that's changed. I think the point of me writing this is to pen my thoughts so I can look back later and see if I've moved in either direction, towards God or towards the world.
This weekend I'm at a retreat with other BCMers from across the state. Hope this will fan the ember that is my relationship with Christ and set me back on fire again.
My Prayer:
Father God, I'm sorry that I've gotten to this point. I'm ashamed of how I've treated your sacrifice. Alot of times, I feel worse than Paul did when he said he was the worst of all sinners. But still You love me. That's out of my comprehension. I can't begin to understand what that is like. Please continue to be patient with me. I'm tired of being mediocre. I'm tired of living a lazy spiritual life. It's easy to pose, but you see through this. Please shower me with conviction when I don't do what I'm supposed to. Please rebuke me when I cast you aside. Please let me fully depend on you. Please let me love you like I did at our first meeting. I don't want to be lukewarm anymore. I just want to bask in your love, mercy, hope, and grace.
In Christ's Name. Amen.
9/15/09
Separation
There are two songs that are currently my favorites. "Worlds Apart" by Jars of Clay and "So Long Self" by Mercy Me. I love the lyrics of these songs. They talk about how we have to separate ourselves from, well, ourselves. We have to deny the fleshly desires that we are so accustomed to listening to and serving. That's tough for me. Sometimes it seems that all we have in this world that belongs to us is, well, us. And we do everything to please it because we know that we are not guaranteed anything else. Our nature is to be selfish.
Sometimes I wonder why God offers us eternal life when our minds can't even grasp the concept of eternity. Or He loves us in a sacrificial manner when our nature is to be selfish. I guess He is continually trying to help us tear away from our sinful, selfish nature by showing us how to go against what is natural.
Some of the lyrics from "Worlds Apart" are:
"Take my world all apart
take it now; take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away"
That's where I want to head. Where I don't have half of my life trying to live in one sinful and natural world and the other half trying to live in unison with God and his plan.
"Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires." - Romans 8:5
Sometimes I wonder why God offers us eternal life when our minds can't even grasp the concept of eternity. Or He loves us in a sacrificial manner when our nature is to be selfish. I guess He is continually trying to help us tear away from our sinful, selfish nature by showing us how to go against what is natural.
Some of the lyrics from "Worlds Apart" are:
"Take my world all apart
take it now; take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away"
That's where I want to head. Where I don't have half of my life trying to live in one sinful and natural world and the other half trying to live in unison with God and his plan.
"Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires." - Romans 8:5
9/14/09
Catch-Up
Hey! I'm kinda a newbie at this thing so I'll start with a couple of basics. I'm a Christian. I try to let that show in everything, but I'm still under construction. I've spent most of my life in Tennessee. I graduated from UT-Martin in May of 2009 with a BA in Communications. I'm currently living in Johnson City, TN and hope to work towards a Masters in Professional Communications at ETSU starting in Jan. Until then, I'm looking for a job and spending a lot of time hanging out with friends and the like. I'm single, and not looking. I'm also pretty simple. Hopefully my hours of boredom and what I learn from God will make for a few interseting blog posts.
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